One Year Anniversary of “I Kinda See Dead People: A Spiritual Memoir”

Hello all! I’m back from my hiatus. I’m back with news. Today, October 13th, 2018 is the one year anniversary of the day that I put my book on the Amazon marketplace. This day was one of the most important days of my young life. A year ago I was a completely different person. I cared too much about what others thought, I had relatively low self confidence, and I wasn’t happy with following the status quo. I knew that writing this book would allow me to reflect, allow me to negotiate, and allow me to change the world in a positive way. I loved the experience of writing this book. I knew that once it was completed, I would become a different person and I truly did. I could no longer care what others thought of me and I think that is the most important trait of successful people.

I had a friend reach out to me and listen to my music yesterday.  I asked him, “Do you make music?” He replied, “I make music too, but I haven’t been confident enough to release it.” Why is it that people don’t pursue their dreams? I will never understand that because you’re working a job that you hate day in and day out. The only chance of possibly getting out of the routine would be to create content that can get you out of this. Music, clothing, movies, and art are all means that can let you out of the robot-like corporate lifestyle. One day, I will win a major award and in my acceptance speech I will tell everyone that there are people who are more creative, more talented, and more marketable than myself, but the reason that I’m here winning, is due to the fact that I don’t care what others think of me. I will die and so will everything that is of this Earth. The difference is that I will have died pursuing everything that I want and on my own terms.

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Sorry that my message of embrace for change seems negative but it isn’t. I just want others to be positive that they can do anything that they want in this world. Yes, it will take time and hard work, but if it is your passion, you should let the world consume it. Although, my hiatus has been due to my job hunt, relationship, and other lurking variables, I’ve never given up. Two weeks ago I was at my lowest point. Thoughts of suicide, depression, and the feeling of being lost in a city with no sense of security crept into my mind. That is why I gave up on the blog, I gave up on meditation, I wasn’t seeing ghosts because everything was moving too fast, and I lost a sense of who I was. I was even about to cancel the blog because I didn’t want to pay for another year… But, I’m back baby! I just need to take everything day by day.

In closing, do what makes you happy. Find that thing that makes you happy regardless of it is good, bad, or otherwise. That thing that, when you’re doing it, you lose all sense of time. For me, I’ve always loved writing and screenplays and whatnot. But, truth be told, I judge myself when I make those things. Music on the other hand; whether it’s trash or perfect, I still enjoyed the process. That is my passion (as well as proving others wrong). I hope that this blog can lead you to pursue your dreams. This book has changed my life and I hope that you all can develop and do whatever you can. Don’t listen to others, this is your life.

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